limbo
Tace Stevens
her arms wrap around my shoulders
enclosing me into her space
chest to chest
my head lays on my mother’s shoulder
my breath fills the small cavity between us
intermingling with her warmth i breathe
three million, nine hundred and thirty-six thousand metres away
the Indian Ocean shies its face from the Pacific
my body adjusts to the 1.5
enveloped by an empty void
i stand alone
elbows thud
my hollow heart longs for contact
as they draw away
days limp past
shadows yawn and stretch
and i am left with the company of my unrelenting thoughts
i live in limbo, two lives between two cities
perth – our hearts forever connected, familiar and slow
my childhood of long summer nights playing with cousins
my lungs breathe quietly, my loved ones by my side
my identity is family
i am daughter, sister and aunty
sydney – my surrogate home for the last eight years
once foreign but now explored with ease
alone, i choose to be here but
being here chips my identity to its core;
i am just me
i have spent the last eight years between
two places, my roots blurred
transience softly walks beside me, my shadow
i’m scared i’ll be in limbo forever
i want both places
but i know
my body was not designed to live without my family
Tace Stevens is a Bibbulmun and Spinifex woman from Perth, currently in her second year of studying film. In 2017 she completed a Diploma of Creative and Indigenous Writing where she was introduced to poetry and creating stories.